Depression.

I've been thinking of this for quite a while, and I think I might be going through a depression. I've read about the symptoms on the internet, and it fits pretty well.
The symptoms are:

• You're constantly sad, and you cry for no reason.
• You're voice is low.
• The way you stand is very slumped down.
  

There is a few more, but those three is the one who fits to me, the best. Ever since new year, when I rejected this boy who apearently liked me, I've been feeling down. Not as much as now though.
He told me that he liked me, new years eve where I invited him over, and I said - because of the curse alcohol - "Alright! Let's give it a chance!" and kissed him. The second after I regretted it The next day I asked him to leave early, cuz' I was tired. Which I weren't. I just wanted to get him out of my house and leave me alone, cuz' he was really going near. Of course, since I practically said yes to going out the day before. So he left, and I wasn't online at all until very late that night. Of course, when I finally logged on he wrote me and asked, if I even ment what I said yesterday. I said no. I told him that I wasn't interrested  at all. And when he asked me to be 100% honest, I told him in 100% honesty; "It disgusts me, to think of us two together." and realized that it was a huge mistake to be that honest.
He got really sad, and said that he wanted to hate me, for what I did, but he just couldn't. That did it for me. I broke down crying and cried for two days straight. I felt so bad for hurting him. I hate hurtigt people. I hate it. I can't take it at all. But I did, and there was no way back.
Finally after two days, I decided to meet up with Mie, for a trip to copenhagen. It cheered me up very much, except for the fact that we were tired as hell after 3 hours of sleep.
After that, I felt like I normally do. I was happy, and laughed with my friends, right until my mom told me; "We're moving back to copenhagen." I didn't want that. In fact. That was the thing I least wanted. But no way out. Mom had spoken. Since then I've been very mad at her, and I didn't really want to talk to her. We fought alot, because all of the sudden I spoke back to her. And she got mad. Also. She kept telling me stuff I didn't want to hear. "Of course you'll lose you're freinds over here. But you'll get new ones." of course I'll lose my friends...Thanks. That's just what I wanted to hear.
Anyway,
I mostly ignorred it and kept going talking to my friends, and pretending to be all happy. I don't like talking about my problems cuz' I know how annoying it can be. Sometimes I feel, like the person nobody cares about, but uses to drop off their problems. But I know that my friends cares about me. And I love them for that. Even though. I feel like I'm loosing alot of friends because of this depressiong feeling. I've lost my ability to just talk to people. I've gotten shy again. Or... Not shy. But I don't know what to say. In the past I tried to be funny, and I was good at getting peoples attention, but I can't do that now. I have a really hard time, talking randomly to people I don't know. it annoys me, because that's kinda how I survived, in life.
Also I feel like, theres something wrong with one of my friends ... Everyday after school she gets really quiet but when we ask her if anythings wrong she says no. She's one of my closest friends, and I'm afraid to lose her. I have this horrible feeling that she hates me, or is mad at me, but I'm not sure if it's true or if it's just me.
All of this makes me feel so ... depressed and I walk around with this horrible feeling in my stomach, all the time.
I'm mad all the time, and I snap at people. I hate what I have become, and I just want things to go back to the way they were.
Please? Let me just live my normal live, like I've always done. Not this. Pretty please?

I don't want a depression, no one does.
It'll ruin my life. Definatily. For sure.
I don't want my life ruined again. To build it all up. Again.
Please don't break me again. .